I put in the best i had in this relationship,
and i gave you the best i can.
But you are taking me for granted.

I don't want to reply you cause i'm sad,
but you said I'm attitude.
I'm not.
I'm sad, i cried.
But did you ever cared?

I had enough.
Go and games all you want bah.

P.S: Having a girlfriend doesn't mean you have to talk to her for 24hrs.
Even when she wants to talk to you.
By: Mervin Tan Kok Wei


Stated on my blog title,
but i hope you will ignore me and enjoy yourself today.

Though i can't be with you and take photos with you wearing that thingy today,
is ok.
You had your "once in your life-time" like you said.
But without me with you.
Lol.
& I know that to you,
this graduation thingy is more important than me,
and i know there won't be anymore next time attending to your graduating ceremony.

But never mind,
sometimes we are just not fated.
Don't you think so?
Haha.

I guess we need time alone now.
But don't forget to enjoy yourself today to the fullest!

P.S: Just hack-care me and my nonsense.
Take care.

沉默是我最后温柔, 是因为我太爱你.


I read your blog,
and so i wana blog back to show that is April 22 again.
=D
Time really flies,
especially when school starts and both you and me are busy with our own stuff.
But i hope despite how busy we are,
we won't forget each other forever.
I still love you as much as how you love me.
Do take care.

To Mervin:
Thanks for your love baby, i love you too.


And yea,
go play all you want.
You don't know how i feel and you don't care how i feel.
Never mind,
i know i'm not important to you.
Your blog, your shows, your games, your brother, your pool and your friends,
they are more important than me don't you?
Hah.
And you said i'm being giving you stress.
That's because you're very important to me.
But never mind,
from now on i don't care about you and i won't bother to.
I won't control you.
This is what you wanted and i let you do the things you want.
Hence,
you won't feel stress when you're with me.

Now you went to play your xbow and what later?
Play your pool?
Then what?
Watching your shows...
Z.
I had enough of everything.
Go NS and don't ever come out is the best.

P.S: I'll leave,
if i realized the most important thing/person to you,
is not me.
How much tears i've shed for you, didn't you ever realize?


Do I really want to be with someone who can't commit?

I'm tired of being the one giving and got nothing in return.
I cherish you,
but do you?
You're not worth for me to wait for you,
unless you can prove that you are one.
I won't force you,
but look at your actions first instead of mine.
What are the cause of me being like that,
you should know best.

P.S: Mervin Tan,
Don't Take People For Granted.
There are still plenty of choices around...


I'm feeling unsecured.
Will you ever understand how i feel?
All you did is to say you got nothing else to say instead of comforting me.
I had my reasons for not trusting you and treating you like this nowadays,
and you should know the reason why.
And I'm still waiting for you to show me the "something",
but i bet you had forgotten about what is it.
I remembered those happy memories when we just started off together,
I cried.
Is it because I'm happy?
Or is it because it won't ever happen again?
I don't know...
I love you baby.
Though I know you changed,
is still you.
But is not the one i once loved deeply anymore...
Will my love last?

P.S: You don't trust or believe me is ok baby,
but i hope you can believe my love for you is true...


Today stayed at home using computer and doing some school stuff,
was very angry of the weather.
Is very very hot even after i bathed.
Hai.

At noon,
bf helped me to change my imeem to the current one i'm using now.
As imeem only allow me to play my song for 30secs.
It totally suck.
I also changed my counter as the previous one didn't show any numbers.
Sweat.

Ok,
nothing much happened for today.

To be updated.


Ok,
look at the time now.
I know is late and it was supposedly yesterday Mervin and me anniversary.
But i haven't slept,
so i decided to post a post.
=)

Today bf came up my house to help me install Microsoft 2007 and visual studio 2005.
Finally i got all the required stuff i need for poly i think.
Haha.
If not i will be stress like heaven.
lolx.
After all those thingys,
both of us went out to meet my YW, Natasha, Anna and June at west plaza bus stop.

June was the last for your info.
Then we board bus 81 to tm.

We went to eat dinner at BBQ at Tampines 1.
June then told us she wana go G2000 to see her formal.
(Lucky i got my da jie's formal top which she used in her poly last time,
so now i only needa buy the skirt. Is pink stripes! =x)
It was damn expensive probably due to no discounts and offers yet.
So we left the shop without buying anything.

After that we then meet up with Debbie as she was busy in the noon.
We took bus to Tampines Safra and played pool over there.
But the sad thing is we were separated.
=.=
Sianx.
Soon it was 10 and we decided to go home.
I took bus with bf and June where else the rest were still waiting for another bus.
Bf sent me home then he went home to rest as he was very tired.

After he reached home,
we chatted and web cam for awhile and he went to sleep at 1am.
He was damn tired but not me.
I was still using the computer to do some stuff and blogging?
Lmao.

Ok,
that's all for today.
Stay tune for more,
and i will try to post some pictures soon i hope.
=DDD

P.S: Check out my bf's another blog which is mostly about Computer stuff and not our R/S nor personal stuff.
Hah.
I have added it under my Links, under his personal blog.

& Finish editing at 2.40am. Now i sleep.