sometimes i still got that strange feelings and thoughts in my heart and mind.
sometimes, or maybe,
always.
i hope i can overcome all of these soon.
is difficult though.

maybe he's right.
i'm mad and crazy over him while he's not over me, at all.

so whats the point of this somehow one sided love.
i'm always the 1 who's heartbroken.
and i don't want to be suffering and hurt by him anymore.
so i'll try to control my feelings for him and stop mad-ding and craze for him from now onwards.
"hahahaha", and yea.
spastic i know.
me, very.

HAHA! :'(

P.S:
if you happen to read my this blog post,
don't worry Mervin Tan KoK Wei.
i'm fine, really and very.
i just want you to be happy! and not suffering when you are with me anymore.
haha! :)

and I LOVE YOU, Mervin Tan Kok Wei.
Serious.


hello everyone who's reading my blog.
i'm so sorry for not updating quite long already.
cause nowadays i'm busy with WORK!
i've got a job.
heh heh.

i got a job at don't know which friday, but is right before my science paper1.
^^
is a job at ica building, level 4!
i will not tell you what i will be doing over there, but is not bad k.
haha.
so i'm busy working.
from morning 830am to evening 5pm, monday to friday.
and sat 830am to 1pm.
sun is my OFF day!
:x
well, darling will fetch me from work from monday to friday and go to my house,
but not sat.
there's a reason why sat we won't be able to meet, but i'm not saying it here.
heh.

so nowdays i will only update my blog if i got the time, like now.
:x
i'm rather slack anyway, only if i'm working i'm busy.
but darlings not the same as me already.
last time i'm busy with exams and now it is his turn!
he got lotsa tests coming right up and he needa prepare for it.
is his last sem already, and then GRADUATE.
just like me.
so he really got to work real hard to get in the university.
i hope he can do it!
i will always support you darling!
IT is your favourite and you are very good at it.
i can see from the way he fix my dad's comp and my cousin's comp.
not really fix though.
haha.
so you can do it!
GOGO.
heh heh.
and cause of his tests, his leaving my house early on weekdays.
around 9pm.
normally is 1030.
but after his tests and his major exams, we will have time to slack!
then you will be going NS already.
lol?

anyway, i will stop typing about his thingy already.
haha.
so while i'm free, i will play my psp games.
darling will help me to dl and send it to me, so that i won't be bored.
:x
and something happened to my friendster.
and i don't know whats wrong.
my friends left 26?
sweat.
and i'm lazy to add.
so if i had really deleted you from friendster, i'm really sorry.
cause i really didn't do anything to it and i'm lazy to add back all already.
sorry guys!
too much to add back.
argh.
so i guess i won't be using friendster anymore.
UNLESS i get back all my friends in my friend list!
Z.


i'm going to stop soon i guess, is rather long already.
haha.
i can't wait for tmr's natasha kang's chalet!
i hope it will be fun.
:x

thats all everyone.
will update soon!
:)


hi, im back!
heh.

while all my other girlfriends are going to have chinese o lvl retake right now,
im going to have my interview for work later.
i hope i can get in that job.
haha.
but if cant i will just find another one, is ok. :x
i just hope for the best.

anyway im still at home now.
going out for work interview at 9.
10's my interview.
then after that i will go out with my parents for duno what thingy.
boring.

well,
i really hope i can get that job!
if not i will go back find the agent again.
lol?
haha.

anyway,
bf at his poly right now studying i guess.
and i havent reply his sms yet cause im right here using computer.
HAHA.
im going to eat my porridge right now.
and i think he will come my house right after his trip to the neWater plant.
after 5.
lol.

okay,
i shall end here.
will update soon.


hello everyone!

it had being around 1mth+ since i last post something on my blog.
cause i was really busy with my O lvls.
haha.

but now i only left 1 more paper!
which is my science, paper1.
i hope i can do well for it. :x

for my previous papers,
i think i only okok only.
i only hope my maths and english can pass!
cause those 2 are my worst subjects.
haha.
so please pass! ._.

anyway i will stop talking exams already, cause it's already wana over.
im so excited!
i hope it can faster end soon!!
i bet not just me but everyone would want their exam to end soon yea?
or maybe not.
haha.

but after science paper 1,
i wont get to see the whole class already.
only class gathering or going out with girlfriends.
but i doubt all of us will have much time right?
cause all of us would wana find a job?
oh well.
im the 1 who also wana find a job badly too!
i needa save money for the future and also going out to enjoy ourselves.
now everything need cash.
so yea, cash is really very important!
to me.
haha.

well,
i've got nothing much to talk about my relationship right here on this blog.
he's still the same as usual,
as stupid as usual.
lol.

now im really stuck up.
i really need a job badly!
then my mum won't nag at me too. :x

well, got to go guys.
will update real soon. :)